Wednesday, April 20, 2011

'I'm Lord Vader' and Other Signs He's Probably Not 'First Kiss' Material

Wednesdays are 'blog carnival' days over at YA Highway, where readers respond to questions posted by the YA Highway team. Today's question is:

Compare your first kiss with your favorite characters first kiss?

Ok. So this topic is a little problematic for me because I often struggle with the accounts of first kisses in YA fiction. My main problem? They're over-romanticised.

Let me start by describing my first kiss; being fairly hopeless with men on a 'romantic' level when I was younger, I didn't have my first kiss until just after leaving school. By the time it actually happened any romantic notions I'd developed about it had all been blown out of the water. Eventually, I had my first kiss because I was so desperate to tick another box in the 'teenage experiences' list that I managed to get over my customary awkwardness around sexually appealing members of the opposite sex and just went for it. It happened in a dingy club, after a few too many shots* and with a man whose name I instantly forgot (which probably wouldn't have mattered anyway as it was so loud in the club he could have said anything from 'I'm Jim' to 'I'm Lord Vader, scourge of the Galaxy' and I wouldn't have known the difference) and whose face I cannot now recall. He was very attractive, thankfully, and my kiss was relatively brief but with it came a rush of understanding.

Now. My biggest problem with first kiss scenes in YA fiction is how they seem to be so... perfect. Here's an example from Evernight by Claudia Gray.
I kissed him, and my dreams told me the truth - I did know how to kiss Lucas ... The knowledge had been inside me all the time, waiting for the spark that would make it catch fire and come alive ... We kissed ... a thousand different ways. All of it was right. (p. 138)
Always there's this idea of the first kiss being something profoundly 'right'. The stars align and everything is perfect. And of course this doesn't take into account that most of the time, it's two teenagers who have had little or no experience locking lips. Perhaps they don't know any better. Perhaps they truly believe for that one moment that this is as good as it gets. I somehow feel this is a bad message to send to teenagers; why build up their hopes when the reality can potentially be, if not disappointing, then just a bit... ordinary?

"Damn it Edward, this is supposed to be the best moment of my life!
Can't you try to look happier?"
"I'm trying, baby! But the sound of those fireworks going
off in my head is really distracting!" (Source)
Here's what I learnt from my experience: first kisses are never perfect. Even if - unlikely though it is - they happen to be with the right person, and you happen to be thirty-five at the time, with the other party thus having gathered enough hands-on experience to make it a real whopper, it will never be the way you built it up in your head. I guess in this way I was lucky. I had already lowered my expectations to the barest minimum.  

I remember that going into my first kiss I wasn't expecting much; my friends had been playing it down to me for months, going on an on about what a let-down it was (to spare my feelings? Possibly, though in this case I think they were just being honest). So I went in with low expectations and all these romantic 'first kisses' from fiction crowding together at the back of my mind and telling me, against all reason, I should expect something spectacular.

And yet I did feel better. The kiss itself was quite enjoyable, but what I really got a kick out of was feeling like I finally had a control over my own destiny. I wasn't sad, doe-eyed Drew Barrymore in Never Been Kissed, hanging around for that special someone to sweep me off my feet with the perfect kiss; I was a real woman, making decisions for myself (albeit slightly clouded by the alcohol*, though the kiss was premeditated for a few weeks; the guy was incidental. Sorry Jim/Lord Vader, scourge of the Galaxy; if I ever meet you again I'll buy you a cookie for your trouble, although the chance is I won't recognise you and if I do I'll probably blush to remember how drunk* I was and walk away really slowly, not making eye contact.)

The moment you realise you're about to kiss the boy of your dreams... and screw it up.
Source.
Sure, I didn't get my magical first kiss with the boy of my dreams, but I got a valuable life lesson upon which to build. That's why my favourite 'first kisses' aren't really first kisses at all. They're 'firsts' more in the sense that they're the first between a certain couple. Take, for example, Bridget and Mark in Bridget Jones's Diary. Or Harry and Sally in When Harry Met Sally. These are people who have struggled, made bad decisions, kissed a heck of a lot of people before, not all of them enjoyable, but have eventually found, through a life of experimentation and experiences, that they're happy with a certain person.

Source.
 I'm not a cynic. I love a good first kiss as much as the rest of them. But at the end of the day a first kiss, like everything else in life, should be an experience, a learning step, not the be-all and the end-all, the final signpost, 'This is the Best in the World'.

Source.


*(disclaimer: for children and other impressionable readers. KIDS! Drinking is bad. As you will soon learn, it makes you do and think stupid things, like: 'I look great in this skirt!' 'I can dance on that table-top in my six-inch heels!' and 'Who says men with eyepatches can't make good lovers and potential life partners?')

16 comments:

  1. Oh, I loved NEVER BEEN KISSED because I could identify with Josie, um, quite a bit. Sometimes I like reading about sweet first kisses so I can re-live vicariously through them. But I agree, there need to be more representations of ordinary first kisses!

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  2. My first kiss sucked big time, so I love the romanticized versions in books. I think for teens it's like, Yes! That's exactly what I want mine to be like. And for adults it's like, Yes! That's what I wish mine were like.

    I do like the awkward first kisses, though.

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  3. Good point about what we really mean by "first kisses"... the kisses I remember from movies/books were not actually true firsts.

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  4. from one late bloomer to another, i love this post. :)

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  5. My first kiss was horrible! I always laugh in the face of good first kiss stories, but I do see why people like to romanticize them.

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  6. I agree with you totally. I actually got my first kiss a month ago. Ever since I've been rewriting all my kiss scenes because before all my knowledge of kissing came from movies and books. And while those fairy-tale kisses are nice, they're not very realistic.

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  7. I am so glad I am not the only one whose first kiss experience was like that. I barely remember the guy's name and did it only for the sake of having a first kiss.

    Loved this post!

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  8. I'm the same way. I didn't remember any real first kisses for mine, except my own. But you're so right!

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  9. Wonderful post! You said it all so beautifully. There's definitely something much better about going through all the experience and finding that right person--that certain, special person you're happy with. It's worth all the fumbling first kisses to get to that point

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  10. You make a wonderful point. The kisses in books are so overblown and not most people's reality.
    Great post.

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  11. "These are people who have struggled, made bad decisions, kissed a heck of a lot of people before, not all of them enjoyable, but have eventually found, through a life of experimentation and experiences, that they're happy with a certain person. " - EXCELLENT point.

    Great post! :)

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  12. Wow! Thank you all so much for your comments! I'm glad I'm not the only person who thinks like this. I must admit I was a bit apprehensive when I posted that people would call me a bitter cynic. :) Sometimes I really like reading about a romantic first kiss, but there's always something holding me back and saying, 'this isn't real'. Most of the time I can shut that part of my brain off, but it's always there.

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  13. I found that I did a lot of stuff because I wanted to check off some standard teen experience as "done."

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  14. Beautiful post! And we're absolutely on the same page about the too-perfect kisses. I was definitely expecting a movie-perfect kiss that no nervous boy could ever have lived up to :-)

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  15. Seriously laughed my butt off at your disclaimer. Is it good for anyone (drunk or otherwise) to dance on a tabletop in six in heels? Sounds like a broken neck to me.

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  16. Thanks guys! :D He he. My lips are sealed on the six-inch heels. It may or may not have happened, ever.

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